Hmmm...

I don't know why, but this year, I've been feeling so gloomy and emo.. Of course I'm not sad or have this uneasy feeling all the time, but it's just been a bad year. There's always something going on in my life, as much as i try to avoid drama, it just seems to come to me. Friends had come and go, some are just well, complicated. I try to think positive, but it's just temporary. I tried to avoid my problems, but it just gets worse. So I just end up taking it all in, accepting it the way it is, I guess that's why i feel so unhappy. Am i a negative force? I don't understand. Sometime I wish i could move away to a different location and start fresh, learn from my mistakes and change what I've done wrong. Sigh.. And what makes me sad the most, is that times I'm suppose to enjoy or should be enjoying the most, I'm never 100% happy at the time because there's always something that is on my mind.. Why do i have to think so much? Why??!!


(sigh)